Gucc! · love · Sometimes · TeeBae

If Love Was Boofie

If Love Was Boofie
Then love will be difined by his personality.

Tall: It could reach forever
light-skinned: You know it’s pure
huge ego: It’ll never Dies
pride: It’ll never let you down
narcissist: It’s very persistence
fit: It’ll never disappoint.
stubborn: Has passion
soft heart: It always forgives
Charming: It’ll make sure you always smiling
Matured: It understands

If love was Boofie,
It’ll be a love worth treasuring
For he loves with the clearest mind and a honest heart.
He ain’t perfect but like water his worth a try.

If love was Boofie,
Then love won’t be defined as a verb for his love is not shown but felt. And love to him is just a word to make you stay.

If love was Boofie,
Love will surely be complicated but seen as perfect. For perfection is who he is.

If Love Was Boofie,
Then Boofie Will Be My True Love.

Gucc! · love · Sometimes · TeeBae · The mask · Writing

It Doesn’t Hurt No More

It was just yesterday; When I looked at the broken girl in the mirror, eyes blood red in tears and screaming, ‘WHAT’S WRONG WITH ME!!‘ Failing to see my value. Then suddenly I felt my knees weakening, chest burning like I swallowed a hot bun, felt my mind blurred out and strength eloping to the point that I hit the ground.

I collapsed in the cold arms of the floor. Feeling nothing but the pain in my heart, unable to save my drowning soul and hating myself for the way he treats me. My mind went blank as I called out your name. I shrink my body then let it go. My heart went from bom ba bom bom da ti…..then stopped. I don’t remember much from there cause I swear I vanished like ashes.

Numb, numb….Forgot to say goodbye.

Numb…Like the wind drifting through the sea, I felt your spirit in my body. And suddenly, my mind raced when you gentle whispered ‘I Love You‘ in my ear but it sounded like ‘I lust You‘ in a monster voice. I felt your soft touch but it felt like a scratch as my heart started beating so fast like a clock. My body moved yet still felt numb. I saw your face as I opened my eyes. I smiled and whispered, ‘I Love You, Gucc!’ to the wind hoping it’ll transfer the message.

I got up from the floor. Told myself that ‘True love is pain. And that it has to rain in order for the sun to rise. You see you’re everything to me and without you the world seem scary, it’d be hard to lift my head up. You’re the reason am breathing and be able to be me.’ In that thought I got in bed, closed my blood red eyes to sleep. The night was cold and nightmares haunted me like a dark night.

Today I woke up to no message nor call from you; though it didn’t hurt. I called and no answer; I didn’t care, normally I call like 10x but today I only called once. I then switched off my phone and focused on my to-do’s of the day. And I didn’t think of you not even once. For a moment I forgot your existence.

Phone switched on, I noticed that you posted another girl. Guess what, I smiled. For I was happy that you found someone better and with that though my heart was at a normal rate, I wasn’t choking, my anxiety didn’t panic and I wasn’t pretending. I shed no tears but happiness. It doesn’t hurt no more to see you replace me.

I finally understood the true meaning of love (to love hard and love when it’s apart), let it hurt then set it free. Now I am free; from all the torture and the cost of staying in a relationship with no value. Now I know my worth and I am happy that you’re happy; after all everyone is doing what’s best for them and so are you. With that thought, it doesn’t hurt no more.

It Doesn’t Hurt No More.

Gucc! · love · Poetry · Sometimes · TeeBae · The mask · Writing

Lost Love

I glanced through the depth crystal blue ocean
Reminiscing about the distant lately,
And the misunderstanding we always had,
The tears I’ve shed everynight
And the heart you broke constantly without care
Then I realised, the ocean is not blue
The ocean just seem blue
But feels colourless though it’s greyish green.

I’ve always wondered why i stack around
Why do i still call my self your girl
why i stick with you even when you show no love
Why do i yern for your soul
Why i care so much for your heart
Why i crave for your; ‘I love you!’
When all you do is confuse me.

Like the ocean, things ain’t always what they seem.
Guess that’s why they say it’s not love if doesn’t hurt
So i close my eyes and reminsce about the facts;
The love in your eyes when you look at me
The warmth of your arms when you hold me
The lust in your veins when you touch me
And the moments we make when we’re together.

See, I always get confused when i think about us.
Confused why you can’t let me go
Why i choke everytime i wanna let you know
‘That maybe we better of separate’
But we can’t let go, is it fate?
Are we meant to be or just in denial?
To the point we can’t accept each other flaws
It’s been years for us to be this lost…

It all started with good intentions
And the purest passion
But we fail or maybe forgot to show love
Maybe not everything needs to be witness,
For the naked eye can be deceitful
And so we need to trust in what we feel
For love is not an object but an emotion
And your love i can not see yet i feel, everytime.

so…

I’ll dream of the day you’d show me love
The day i’d be your one and only
The day i’d make your heart skip a beat
The day you’ll cherish me with no shame
And the day you’d truly love me without limits
So for that day I shall wait
Even thought it might not come.

For now, i shall witness me fade from your mind
And embrace the silence of the distant
As i watch my name disappear from the tattoo
Until the only thing left will be my blood in your system
And the shade of the girl infront of you
Trying to show the memory of love
As you hear the sound of the heart that only beats for you

Even in hundred and thousand miles away
You Shall Hear The Heart Beat
Til It Dies
For I Truly Love You.

-Boofie

Gucc! · love · Poetry · Sometimes · TeeBae · Writing

Booty Call

Ring, ring with no love
Looking through your hazel eyes
Watching your love fade like blue skies
With no emotion left to be nice

Ring, ring with no love
Your arms are as cold as ice
Even though your heart still beat with mine
But your mind’s denying me like a virus

Ring, ring with no love
Only touch me to undress me
‘I love you’ to open my legs
And ‘you’re mine’ just to put it in

Ring, ring with no love
Feeling worthless after this round
Watching you sleep with no cuddle
I could run away but these chains…

Ring, ring with no love
I’m broken i just need you
Don’t need money just your arms
To hold me and make me feel alive

Ring, ring with no love
Here we go again,
Your hands on my tights
Clothes removed, you’re on top of me

Ring, ring with no love
Can’t resist the one i love
But always feel miserable after the second round
Asking why don’t you love me as you shut me up

Ring, ring with no love
This time with no rubber
Explained about the protection
You claimed you’re my man, it doesn’t matter

Ring, ring with no love
I might be pregnant this time around
Feeling pain as i try to pee
Crying to God, Why me?

Ring, ring with no love
Watching you leave like dark cloud after rain
Forgetting where you’ve been
Forgeting my existence

Ring, ring with no love
It’s been a month since we talked
And you just called to say, you’re horny
GUESS ALL OF THIS IS JUST LUST

RING, RING WITH NO LOVE
I SHALL NEVER ANSWER THIS BOOTY CALL AGAIN.

ยฉKitty Minaj

Gucc! · love · TeeBae · The mask

God Sent Me A Devil

Been calling his phone up
Since i saw him kissing some girl.
I know he doesn’t love me,
But his everything to me
No one can make me feel the way he makes me feel
His a blessing and a curse
God sent me a devil,
Down from the ground
To hurt me so much.
This can’t be love but war
Might as well call it hell,
Because everyday I’m broken,
on my knees with blood tears
Begging him to show me some love
Has he stab my heart with polygamy
Knowing i can’t let go
I’m chained up in his lust
Feeling like it’s the closest to love
Even when he play me like a ball
I still come back like a dog
For my loyality lays with him
And he owns my soul
For his the devil,
Happiness is not ideal in his kingdom
And if this isn’t hell,
Tell me what it is…
Cause I’ve never felt this much pain
Feels like my heart is on fire
I could run away but he got me in his chains
And all i can do is pray,
To the lord to save
And hope,
That even the devil can change.

God Sent Me A Devil.

love · Poetry · TeeBae

Feel Me Not

Feel Me Not
As I search for your eyes to lock with mine
Internally gazing through your eyes
But you couldn’t read what’s on my mind.

Feel Me Not
As I moved my head to my left shoulder
Slowly opening my eyes with an flirtatious grin
But all you did was smile.

Feel Me Not
I narrowed my eyes still locked with yours
Rhythmically licking my lips
But all you said was ‘mmmh’

Feel Me Not
Getting close enough for you to feel my warmth
With a gasp, I bite my lip
But you couldn’t give me a kiss.

Feel Me Not
I am out of ideas
Awkward silence strikes as I tried to think
But all you did was move away.

Feel Me Not
You must feel me today
For I am your girl
But you acting like a gay.

Feel Me Not
I cried I’m tired
So you can take me to the room
But you just went straight to bed.

Feel Me Not
I took off my clothes
And helped you remove yours
But then you placed your face down and closed your eyes.

Feel Me Not
I lament in my sleep with my body out to see
You touch me nervously, I gave you a kiss
But kissing was all you did.

Feel Me Not
As I climb on top
You pressed my body against yours
But all you did was grab my ass.

Feel Me Not
You continuously kept grabbing and kissing
Or wait now, you’re slowing moving down my neck
But it’s been an hour still kissing with no action.

Feel Me Not
I am so bored right now
Rolling my eyes, seriously out of the mood
But you couldn’t tell i was turned off.

Feel Me Not
Please stop
You claimed you’re tired
But, well so all you did all night was sleep on me

Feel Me Not
You don’t feel me at all.
-Boofie
ยฉKitty Minaj

love · Poetry · Quotes · Sometimes · TeeBae · Writing

Boofied Up, It Hurts

When the mist surrounded us
And blinded my eyes,
I only felt you with my heart.
The distance was loud
But the passion was pure
Or maybe i just wanted it to be.
You are my joy
The only soul that keeps me alive
Reminds me of my dad.
You told me about the flame,
I couldn’t see through the smoke.
You pushed me to the edge,
I burnt with no hate
Felt like the fire was the one in my heart
You kept tossing and turning me
Like a chicken in a stove.
And with every hurt,
You cried not to go
Because you love me so.
See, i can take your lies
But your insults, come on.
For i know my worth
Was hoping you’ll respect that…
Thought you were different
But you’re all the same
Thought this was real
But it was all a game.
I gave you my heart
And you gave it away.
With all this pain,
Still can’t seem to let go.
Because My heart yerns only for you.

ยฉKitty Minaj

love · Poetry · TeeBae · Writing

Once Upon In Love

In the most radiant garden
Where two beautiful beings dwelt
A happy and fulfilled life
Where all we had was each other.

The days were always still
In peace the nature blossom
And the sun never sets
For forever was all we had.

Together every single day
Never dull one another
For our hearts were pure
And your love was the realiest

You searched for my shade
To hold and look in my eyes
To comfort my soul
And serve me your smile

In the clearest days of all
Where the flowers were delighted
And the sea was blue
As clouds dance to the silent sky

You held my hand so gentle
Pulled me close to feel your heart
Staring at my beauty
You cried, ‘I LOVE YOU SO.

Persistently gazing at me till our eyes locked
You searched for my soul
I felt your sorrow
Healing all my pain

Snuggling to feel every emotion
The hate that broke our hearts
The love that kept us alive
And the chemistry of our lust

Undefined Moment
Felt the warmth of your skin
The coldness of your nose touching mine
Love never felt so alife

As I close my eyes
To learn in
and kiss you
I hit the wall…I opened my eyes,
And the ground was shaking
The walls were cracking
My heart was breaking.

Alone in the dark
I called out your name,
‘Gucc!,Gucci…’
My love was no where to be found

In tears I sat still
With the hope that…
The love that onces lived
Will somehow find it’s way.

But for now…
Love lived sadly ever after.’

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Dream Of Love

I woke up to a different morning. The birds were no where to be found; the sky was dark and cloudy. I stretched my eyes a couple of times and smiled with my hands searching for something to hold…then I realized he wasn’t by my side.

I called his phone a couple of times and he didn’t pick up. Went to bed and as I closed my eyes I remembered all the bad things we said to each other. Well I remembered that I’m the one who said all the bad things to him. I wish I could reverse the clock.

The day went by so slow without him by my side. Each second felt like an hour of regret and pain. Tears flew down my face like a waterfall and my heart ache crying for it’s true love. For I can’t live without him….Have I lost the fruit of my happiness??

The sky was clear when the night fall. My tears had dried when my lover called me outside. To the sunset he kneeled down, asking for forgiveness and love back. He held my left hand and nervously took out a ring. He looked at me with love and the world blossom when I trembled to say yess….
ยฉKitty Minaj

Depression · love · Poetry · suicide note · TeeBae

If I Should Die

If I Should Die
And you should live
To witness our future
And what could’ve been

If I Should Die
Remember to always smile
For another love shall be found
To heal what’s broken

If I Should Die
Remember not to forget
The love we shared
And the heart you broke

If I Should Die
The songs you made
And the peom I wrote
Shall be embraced forever

If I Should Die
Learn to forgive
The cruelty of life
And the selfishness of my deeds

If I Should Die
You shall live forever
In the mist of our live
And the blood of our unborn child

If I Should Die
Please don’t cry
Call it a distance relationship
For I’ll always love you in death

If I Should Die
Cherish the times we had
And the memories we made
For they will bring you happiness

If I Should Die
Never forget my love
The feelings you had
Everytime we touched

If I Should Die
I’m sorry about everything
Confusing you with my emotions
And belittling you with the past

If I Should Die
Know that I’m thankful
For the times you never gave up
And the loves I’ve always pushed away

If I Should Die
Sorry about the tattoo
Cause now you’ll have to get a pet
That you’ll have to name after me.

If I Should Die
I shall live in you
Protect you from the dark
And make you read everyday.

If I Should Die
Never Stop Loving Me
Til infinity
I shall also love you.

I love you…If I Should Die.